i have to work today...and it sucks... i know...as a matter of fact, i slept in the car for me not to be late. and my neck hurts. but still, i was late. i didn't wake up when the phone alarmed. in short im just sooo sleepy. i badly need a decent sleep. i always complain but i always do it. who's to blame? nobody but me.

last night we went to guilly's island again. i didn't like the atmoshpere. i don't know...maybe it's the crowd. i didn't even stay for more than an hour. my eyes were hurting. the smoke continuously got in my eyes and the feeling sucks big time.

yesterday, i went to school a bit unprepared. but it was nice to kind of realize how successful the discussions were. the students' eyes were glued to me. whenever they needed to speak up, they spoke and express their views. nice one. i hope to maintain that kind of scenarios every meeting. most of the classes im attending this semester are about speech communication. and it's something i want to improve. i feel like i am a tv host whenever i am in the class. lolz.

we saw 2012 a couple of days ago. i thought i was watching the day after tomorrow. un pala, the director of the films is just one person. i don't wonder why there was the same touch. and for me i think the title of the movie should be "the modern day noah's ark" hah. but seriously we must act now to save the world we live in.

i like this shirt i am wearing. it's given by a friend. not really expensive ( i know how much it costs). what i like about it is that it doest show the bulge of the love handles, and it gives emphasis to the upper body muscles.

a sigh of relief to be in my bed at 830 pm. my body has been letting me feel that i need to rest. and it does not surprise me a bit because when i was at work this morning, i took a nap. when i woke up, my mouth was wide open. yucky! i remember when we went to bicol to build houses, we all slept with our respective mouths open because of too much exhaustion. i can tell i am definitely tired. i tried to work out this afternoon before going to class. the only thing i was able to do was jog. i decided to resume the weights on saturday.

the header says going big time. i really wanna do something big soon. everytime i see these people around me, i start teling myself that i need to begin something i am gonna do for the rest of my life. and it has to be both income generating and public service. i am thinking of something but a study has to be done to be able to fulfill it. it ain't that easy especially if it's something big.

tomorrow will be somewhat busy. i have work in the morning, then i have check up at my dentis after lunch. in the afternoon i will be at the PBA and at night i think we will be having a night out thing agian. so sleep has to commence now. but im afraid it wont be so soon because i'll have to prepare some school papers for saturday.

i thought my day was gonna be alright. it's the other way around. until now it lingers in my mind and i feel like cutting my wrist. er... those people's wrists. how can some people be so oppressive; unmindful of how other people would feel. it was such a big blow, and since i'm a worrier, i can't stop thinking of how to adjust with my finances. eh halos weekly ata for the last 4 weeks, i've been buying clothes. lol. whatever. life goes on, im lucky i still have two jobs, with sidelines on some occasions. I promise myself, if it's still gonna be like this in the next two years, i think i'll have to think again... in 4 years I'll be thirty. and it's kind of hard to get a new job in the PI when youre middle aged.

to relieve stress, i had dinner with friends (again?!?!) but made sure there's no rice intake. i only ate the shrimps and kare kare. which happens to be calorie-fic as well. oh noes. then as ron, pau, gary, carlo and wynnie were playing poker, i suddenly felt asleep. and thought of taking a nap. funny. it was a long sleep na pala. i wasn't even able to change clothes. and i was holding this tiny royce chocolate which luckily is still intact. and im gonna eat it later. royce apparently has been indulging me lately with its yummy-ness.

to start the day right, i want to thank Bro, up there,  for letting me go to work with a complete satisfying dose of sleep. :D it's been a while since i've had something like that. it's not everyday that you wake up in the morning with that eagerness to work. and today i feel that way- all psyched up. I hope my day will be productive- all done in Bro's name.

yesterday was fun. totally fun-filled day, bonding moments with friends at andy's birthday at outback in G4. awesome food i must say. all worth it. though i missed the wedding rehearsal for maan's big day, coz i was too tired maybe from playing at timezone,  got drowsy when we went home.

yes very early. as a matter of fact, 730 am na. hahahahaha. sunday. today's the big fight of pacman in las vegas. kung tatanunging naman why i went home this early is because of a long day yesterday. i had class yesterday, until 4 pm. kaso in the morning i was a bit upset because i have expository writing class. eh i don't know anything about it so i still have to study the matter the whole semester. pero when my classes ended, i went to the office to get the student evaluation. and i almost screamed on top of my lungs when i was told that from last semester's 4.29 rating, eh 4.52 na ako last semester. (5.00 is the highest). i promised the office people ice cream blow out maybe on monday :D

then after that, i was supposed to go home na. originally, my plan was to watch a cinema one movie screening in gateway. but, i remembered, we will ba attending don robert yap's birthday party dinner time. so i decided to call up faye to visit baseco tondo first. there were other lasallians too so we made some kwentuhan like the old times. but faye had to go coz she was watching katy perry. and likewise, i had to prep up for the dinner party. 

when i went to valle, natulog muna ako sandali, then we went na to green meadows. ang dami na palang tao when we arrived. andun na sila paolo, april and wynnie, krista and gerard, alex minus trina, ronjay, and may mga celebrities pa. as usual, pag sapit ng 12, inaantok na talaga ako. what i did, i went to jenn's car, and slept there. mga 2 na sila lumabas, and then we decided to play casino. UNTIL 7 am! haha. buti na lang balik taya ako. but my friend. she lost like 80k. :( sayang....

i bought an emergency underwear a while ago because i'll be sleeping over here sa condo ni sheila. eh since i always have polos, shirts, pants, socks etc sa car lagi, un lang ang kulang. dito na lang ako matutulog kasi maaga ang pasok ko bukas. correction... mamaya pala, umaga na pala... mukha na ata akong zombie. eh last night galing naman kami sa bahay ni manong chavit singson, birthday ng anak nya na si richelle. so anyway, bumili ako ng underwear sa shopwise sa araneta since we had dinner sa oyster boy after the PBA. then i was asking the sales person what size do i hafta buy. if my memory serves it right, eh Medium lang ang binibili ko. surprisingly he had a tape measure. laking gulat ko, 34 na daw, meaning i'll buy Large. patay! i told myself. it's the result of too much eating. tomorrow, nesvita lang ang breakfast ko. i swear.

it is 930 in the evening, i just came home... (finally) and im ready to wash myself up. this yearning is apparently caused by a very sunny day... which earlier resulted into alot of sweat that dripped on my back everytime i walk under its mighty rays. despite doing it before, bringing an umbrella is not really an option. not in school. obviously it's not in the norms of Filipinos to make use of umbrellas when it's sunny. gender issues.

today's the first day of classes. i think i mentioned that in my previous posts. and it's just today that i'll be getting my schedule as well. good thing when i arrived, the paper's ready. that's why i didn't hesitate to bring the office people some food for them. it's a gesture that signifies gratitude. i feel blessed and humbled that they gave me importance despite my being the youngest in the department.

i didn't go to class though. i don't that reporting for duty in regular straight jeans would be something i'd be respected for. i didn't know i will have schedule today. i hope i'm forgiven...moving on, the reason i went home early is that i will be researching on the syllabus that i made... conversational english. it's the first time i am handling this course. i hope i'l be able to give justice in teaching what the course is all about. secondly, so that i can go out tomorrow. the two week sem break just too short. but when i looked at my wallet... okay time to work. i told myself.

a while ago i was had a long chat session with kikz garrucho. he's now based in canada. i asked him if he felt lonely, now that he's staying there when his family is well to do here in the PI. and he said "just a bit". Now I wonder what is in me that i cannot seem to still get over the boredom i experience at times. like i mentioned in my previous post, i am looking forward to a number of things which wil make me pre occupied during the day. however, when i was having another chat session with jp abcede the other day, he kind of mentioned that i am an emo. and that somehow i must put and end to being single. makes sense. i actually like someone now. the thing is, this person thinks i'm a milking cow. maybe when i'm a millionaire, a can be a sugar daddy. imao.

Currently watching: some dvd
Currently feeling: still feels bored...

while i'm trying to sip half of this grande chocolate cream chip, i will take time to write something again. the only time i'm able to do this is when i'm sitting down resting, when i'm literally idle. it's 6 after sunset, and i will be sleeping in a while. not so sure though if the frap will prevent me from dozing off. my friends know very well that i am not a big fan of coffee, ditto with starbucks. it just so happened that when i was about to go home, bong texted me that he needed to fill his starbucks planner card. i gave him a nod. anyway it's just a couple of blocks from the apartment.

i will get some sleep for maybe a couple of hours? it's paulo's birthday party tonight. i know for a fact that later,  i will go to bed when the sun's about to say hello (again), and it calls for some sleep. well i also went home late this morning because we went to punchline. in QC. we were hoping to have gone to laffline but it was packed to the rafters. anyway, back to topic, the party will be at the celebrant's house in wack wach village. i'm expecting it's going to be full pack like years back. good thing i won't be going by myself. which of course if such case happens, i will be the most pathetic creature to attend the party.

this morning we had a meeting in school. as i myself expected, i was more than a couple of hours late. in a portion of the meeting, we were told that enrollment dropped to a staggering 30% decline. then i started texting aga to express how sad it was to know that an estimated 8 thousand students won't be studying this term. i think this is due to the recent typhoons that struck the country. however, i know that BRO is there, and he will not let such things happen. the enrollment still goes on until next week, and i am hoping that the statistics will get better.

i don't really like to wake up in the morning without looking forward to doing something. i hate the feeling of looking for an activity to be busy with. others may be saying that it's fun to be going on a stress free day, hassle free one. but i ain't really like that. ever since college, i made to it that i expect a schedule to come up to my face as soon my eyes open. and i've said this to a number of friends. and they told me i'm weird. basta anything that's worth paying attention to, it's fine.

if i may analyze the culture or more appropriately, the practice of the Filipinos, i would say that a number of Filipinos are fond of this happy-go-lucky attitude. i never miss a day seeing the roads of manila with tambays or "stand-by's". i am certain they have things they can be busy with regardless if they're jobless. there's household chores or errands, but maybe they oblige themselves to do the manyana habit.  i definitely despise that. however on my end, i don't lfeel like being busy with household chores. i think i was born for greater things. that's why i entrust my laundry to the laundry shops, the car to car wash boys ...and my paper works to Liezel. but of course i give her a hand on that.

(sigh)i do not know how i will solve this problem. or is it a problem at all? maybe it's time to know some more people so i can expand my network. and that i must establish maybe a business or a small institution that will make me busy everyday. like today, i don't have anything to look forward to. we won't be going to baclaran anymore since we already went last night. and i'm avoiding malls...definitely a no!

the business thing maybe not so soon though. there's a lot of things coming up. the second semester is gonna unfold. and that would mean work. like what celebrities usually, all they do is work work work. they aren't complaining. they're bragging. photoshoot for work? tv guesting for work? endorsements for work? not bad eh. i went with a friend to do a photoshoot at the poolside of araneta colisum for his endorsement of Fern C on friday. in less than an hour...an instant P8k. really not bad. that's barely what someone would make in a month's work right? now no one will wonder if there's a pile of people lining up for big brother or survivor.... that can probably be the road to "work".