i pity myself for not having any schedule for today. originally, our plan was to go to nike highstreet. im buying a new pair of shoes and i dunno what my brother wants. i contacted kuya lev but he's in davao so we will have to wait until monday to get the discount letter. sayang din ang 50%. anyway... what i ll do is proceed to antipolo because ate nora told me it's better that i just spend my weekend there. it's just in time for alvin's wedding tomorrow.

yesterday, we went swimming at ymca benavidez then ate at sincerity. what a name for a restaurant huh, but it's yummy and cheap. during the day mom and i went to greenbelt to visit our cousins who'll be back in guam today. they were checked in at prince plaza 2 along dela rosa.

the previous day, wednesday, i went to the gym. almost everyone was wearing his mask to protect themselves from the influenza scare. it freaks me out that one of the regulars there just came back from the states. and aldrech, who had fever that day, just came back from japan. now i don't wonder why the people there were wearing masks.

i still have money left from my trip in macau. i don't know what i'll buy though. maybe boardshorts? if stoked is on sale then maybe i can give it a try. also a wallet. nike has this really cheap wallets for less than 1k. later ill drop by at nike in eastwood before going to antipolo because i think it's the only store that has the leather nike wallet. but ill be sparing 1k for my airfare on the 27th. i hope it doesnt rain during those dates.

it's 12:50 am and i can't go back to sleep. probably because i slept while watching the headlines a while ago when i came home from school. and maybe because my body clock has gone berzerk since i've been having inadequate sleep for the past two months since summer started.

it was already raining very hard on the eve of our departure for macau last sunday. it's saturday morning, a week and a day after that day, it's still raining. we continually monitored the weather here in manila while we were there because we heard of what happened in brazil where an airplane was stricken by lightning. i kinda think it's cool that we are now living in a wet kind of climate like that one in the state of washington. im just saying this though because we saw twilight in the hotel we stayed in.so i downloaded twilight and saved it to  my ipod. corny.

what isn't cool though is this A H1N1 virus. i was semi excited that i'm going to school na on monday. when i got my schedule this afternoon, there's no classes pa pala. it's moved to june 17.. oh well not bad. at least i can clean my room first and fix all those school stuff i used last sem. and shucks, la salle has been infected. yaiks. ano na lang ang mga jeers for la salle sa uaap...

i miss my room. but that doesnt mean i transferred to another. it's just i rarely go there anymore. i just miss fixing whatever needs to be fixed. add to that the 3 laundry bags that need to be put to the cabinets. i wish it's start of classes already. so by then, ill literally be just staying home. other friends are making fun out of sleeping over at different houses. i don't care though. i get more contented with talking to someone in the morning when i wake up. in my dorm, when i wake up, my mout continues to be zipped unless i yawn. i have no one to talk to. alfie's not there yet. anyway, i really like this quote from desperate housewives

I'm alone but I'm not lonely because i have friends. Love doesn't happen for everyone. I don't even know if it's gonna happen for me anymore. But my friends are there for me no matter what- Susan Mayer (Teri Hatcher)

a lot has commented that my size looks better now compared to the one i had before. though i think i'm still thin for my height of 5"11. my usual weight was just usually ranging from 154 to 158 lbs since i started going to fitness first. now i realize that i wasted a log of money in that gym. i could say that the benefit i got enrolling in FF was the saunas and steam baths. and maybe the luxury of travelling around the metro just to take advantage of their passport program. the only gym i wasn't able to visit was the alabang branch.

so as i was saying, many people are giving me the complement that i look better now... plus no pimples (knock knock) let me count them haha, jaime, sheila, adrian, my sister (definitely) auntie naty, marison. are they valid enough to be said that my size is better now? the thing is i didn't realize i have been eating out everyday... especially dinner time. i remember my instructor telling me not to eat a lot at night. if i may do so, lemme remember the places i've visited since april 1

apr 1 - ron's house
apr 2 - ron's house
apr 3 - ersao west ave
apr 4 - wan chai morato
apr 5 - flavours of china sm fairview
apr 6 - monaco banawe
apr 7 - hanobe banawe
apr 8 - BK sm san lazaro
apr 9 - subic
apr 10 -subic
apr 11 -ron's house
apr 12 -edsa shang
apr 13 -dencio's morato
apr 14 -tramway banawe
apr 15 -cibo gateway
apr 16 -flapjacks ghills
apr 17 -ron's house
apr 18 -ron's house
apr 19 -cyma shang

all of these equals 164 lbs today. is that bad? ulk im eating dietary fiber enriched oats nga since yesterday.
also, it made me realize, i'm always at ron's house. haha.

just last year, i found my email flooded with reviews on this Thai movie The Love of Siam. I sort of regarded these as spam and didn't even bother to read the reviews. The movie's promo poster didn't even attract me a bit. before the end of last year my friendster got a friend request... mario maurer. Then I thought, it was just Rey, a friend who's fond of creating fake friendster profiles. Confirmed, it's Rey Lim.

just yesterday, as I was resting, preparing for the PBA, i went online. I saw in my email again a promotional link of a Filipino who blogs from Bangkok. Apparently, the topmost part of the blog says something about mario maurer again. Then it rang a bell. Isn't he the guy in that movie review in my email last year? Since I had 4 hrs to spare, I decided to search for the movie in the ever reliable youtube. Voila, there were a couple or more of users which have the whole uploaded. I started with the 6th out of the 17 parts.

fast forward today 15 minutes before noon, I still cannot forget the movie. Funny. I even told 5 friends I spoke to last night and this morning to try watching it. I definitely fell in love with it. I've been to Thailand and it made me feel really attached to the movie, that it seemed that I can relate to the scenes very much. Now I don't wonder why I'm even blogging about it.

my fascination of being bitten by vamps (true blood), being a hunter (supernatural), being an upper eastsider (gossip girl) etc, are all gone for now. i feel like I want to bring back my life back to its younger years particularly when I was in high school. All these years, I never really paid attention to loving someone really serious. I've always taken for granted those people who thought of loving me. All I thought of was mingling with my upper class friends. It made me realize, it's not really the money which can buy happiness. It made me think, I can be happy even without these caprices I've ever wanted. I can be the Tong, the Mew, the Donut, the Ying in the movie. It still gives me goosebumps and I cannot explain it. I hope I'm inspired everyday like this. hopefully, it wouldn't matter that i don't have a car for the next couple of weeks...lolz...hopefully the message of the movie will be stuck in my mind for forever, for as long as i'm capable of loving someone. can the love of siam really happen in real life?

Currently feeling: inspired

it's just march 21st and i am already bored. what's up with summer? i may not push through with my plan of going to singapore since i have other plans with my funds. firstly, my hard disk is kinda like...not working? damn it...im just using it for pics and microsoft excel...it's too slow pa nga...and i havent even bought extra memory...and look...sira na hard disk?

anyway...i don't really have plans for myself today...just go to school and then encode grades...then a little bit of exercise...boring no? actually i just came back from marison's house...and 5 hrs lang yata tulog ko dun...i have the vaguest idea why i feel energetic pa ren...it's already 9 am...

ive been asking around the school about spaces for rent...may nakita ako...but it's a two storey rental space...i feel like i wont be needing the 2nd storey...and i have no idea how big is the 15sqm... may prospect business ako...but... the sidewalk vendors...malaking pampasira ng negosyo...now i know why the mmda is after these illegal entrepreneurs...i feel for those legally built businesses. at eto pa ang catch...the rental for the space i saw was 23k/mo, 3 mos deposit and 3 mos advance...WOW. that's like im spending almost 150 for rental for the first 6 mos? mejo mabigat un..pero yesterday...i was interviewing a kiosk vendor sa farmer's plaza...farmer's pa lang un ha...the rental of KISS (squid balls, kikiam, etc) is 30k/mo. For that tiny space? tapos, target income per day...3k... if 3k x 30 days = 90k, 60k na lang matitira minus the operating cost and employee salary pa...plus other minor expense... GRABE! business may not be really good these days...the launday infront of this dorm i live in is already closed. the owner happens to be a friend na ren... imagine... they pay 5k worth of water bills a month, then rental is 8k, plus detergent and electricity bills pa... 2 nga lang employees nya kaya mejo mabagal...i asked him... what would be his biggest revenue for that business... he said... EXPERIENCE. actually i wasnt expecting the income na as an answer.... but i like the EXPERIENCE part... that's what i do not have. maybe kulang lang ako sa lakas ng loob...i feel like i don't wanna take risks kasi..eh ung iba nga, able to build a business for 10k, mas lalo naman capable din naman siguro ako...but i need to gather some more info...asking some Qs...and coming up with the right business.... for now gagawin ko muna yung syllabus na inuutos ni ma'am estacio...

both can go together. but that would require lots of skills. and i don't have that. i am not able to do both together since teaching is not leisure. the issue is i have to study, teach, then check the papers, then encode the grades then study again. jeez... im lucky i have liezel to check my quiz papers. she's never complained about the fact that i make her eyes exhausted almost everyday.

i appreciate ma'am estacio's trust in me. she has entrusted in me the duty of creating the syllabus for the seminar on communication and technology for english majors. and im actually excited for next term, hoping that the global meltdown doesn't have much effect on the students. i will be teaching customer service management. WOW. before, i was the one being taught how to be of service to people. and now, the tables are turned.

even though the pba finals ended without me watching, i think i still didn't have much time to do other things. i felt so pre occupied. i hope that the curse that most teachers end up as old maids or old bachelors isnt true. it haunts me big time.

another thing, i think im falling for this person, but the thing is age gap. haha. and worse, hindi na siya single. when i saw the friendster kanina... i was broken hearted. literal...then i texted my friend and sought for advice... he didn't convince me with his answer. what am i gonna do. should i just stay away from the person. baka magulat na lang siya if suddenly i make iwas.

Currently feeling: confused

i was wishing i would be able to do something that i dont usually do during school days. lo and behold, my dream came true. possibly, i got tired of studying every night. i have to prepare 3 lessons each week and it sucks....i have this usual migraine na yata. if not for ronald tubid, then  think i would just have a usual weekend watching the PBA. but maybe i grew tired of watching the games na. last friday, i watched the air21 play against red bull in araneta. i arrived 2nd half na only to find out wanted the game to be finished sooner than it should be done. lol.

i never knew we'd go to subic for kayaking and jet skiing. when i knew that, i didnt hesitate to join them. i remember one time when i attended a mass over at gateway mall, the priest mentioned that sometimes, it's better to prioritize something that you don't usually do, in exchange for everyday stuff. not a bad idea after all. same thing with a study i read. they found out that people who usually take a break from work, those who take SLs or VLs when needed are happier than those who are perfectly present in class or work. makes sense. so i told myself, i can be absent today (monday) if ron decided to spend two days at white rock. good thing, he decided to go home by 10 pm and i didnt complain. at least i got to have a vacation and not miss work today.

the only thing i regret: sleepless. literally i haven't had a decent sleep for two days. just power naps. thats why i am able to write here tonight, i decided to just go home and rest instead of going to the gym.

it pains me not to join aunt carol and tessa in HK today. lucky bitch, canon won in the tussle. the thing is if i chose HK, i have no camera. if i chose camera, then i'd go to HK. but what's the essence of going to HK if there's no camera right? haha. anyway so i decided to get the cam first. blessing in disguise din, because i will be needing money for my new room. ive been browsing a lot of catalogs for room furniture just to end up with ace hardware haha. kidding. im planning to go to blims in ortigas.

im not sure if alfie will be joining me. we were supposed to transfer last week but then he had to go back to the province and seek permission from his mom. i hope by thursday he's got a response already. the thing is, francis is supposed to come with me...but he's got 3 days of school in a week lang yata. so he doesnt have to stay in sampaloc for the time being.