i told myself m neva gonna be using this stuff. but as always, m wrong. i just read my friends' posts and it seems like em touched having been mentioned several times, especially kay paul. :D

i just wanna thank sim, paul and gresh for their unwavering support, for liftin me up when i'm down. sana lang maging weekly na(actually weekly na sha) pagkikita naten coz the more i see you, the more i look forward to seeing you guys agen. :D

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it's 10 pm and usually im asleep na. em more of a morning person. but i have to attend a training, coz if i wont attend the pm shift, i gotta attend a b shift, which i hate. kinda sad... pero oks lang may nakita ako cute. pampagising. mejo nangangapa ako sa pag post, i dont even have a pic yet, maybe i'll ask paul do it for me. :D


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i came early sa eastwood to try this cd i bought. but fcuk talaga, the pcs in the training room arent workin. DELL Dimension 8300 (which i just tore down kanina, and memorized the internal parts) pa naman. kaazar, what i did, me and my friends strolled sa eastwood. nice to see eastwood at night... again, after so many months... :D

tis my second night to be a c shifter after more than a year and a half of living a "normal life". citywalk has never been so tempting on a saturday night. there's gonna be a fireworks display anytime. i know i'm gonna bump into someone as soon as i go down. the catch is i have this training. i gotta take this seriously though. :D

i just had 5 hrs sleep coz i had a quickie at fitness first in the a.m. when i got home, i watched d vcd i bought and saw jay-r in that. he never fails to make my day. :D

i got a gud news from my friend greshella, my clearance is almost done. hopefully am gonna finish it by monday wit her when we see each other. :D

after losing 4 of its five games, coke won.
kudos to my fave team.
i had my pic taken wid my pc.
i did something na naman, which i promised not to do agen.
lead me Lord.
day off na..........
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i'd just like to share some of the funny things that i heard during my training. i shared this to some people na but i'd prefer to have it written.

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trainer assigning members to each groups. 3 groups were formed.

trainer: you'll be group 1, this will be group 2 and the last would be group 3.
trainee: group 3 are we?


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during a role playing...

customer: i'd like to order 3 pizzas for tom, coz it's my birthday tom!
agent: oh sir! happy birthday tomorrow!

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after finalizing a module...

trainer: are there any questions?
trainee: there's NO!

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during one of my interviews...

interviewer: what's ...( the rest is a murmur)
me: come again?
interviewr: i didn't come yet.

NO COMMENT!

after 2 consecutive days of doing the usual routine, (house-office, vice versa) i decided to give myself a break. i woke up late but manageable enough to go to one of my favorite hang-outs. the PBA.

for a long time, i got to laugh the natural way again. i have been forcing myself to hide the real me for security reasons. but in a place where i grew, i cannot hide. a lot know me, and they are the people who i got to be with for the rest of my teen years. but i dont regret, they always make me laugh. from beginning till end, we just laugh.

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i could have been with my friends tonight. mervyn texted me the group's gonna go to malate. unfortunately i cant come, because of this crap i am in. work. :(

francis called me up, he and some people will go to Government in Makati. (one of the new places i should visit) again, to my disappointment, i just gave them a NO. because of work. :(

lizza told me that pao might treat us dinner again. again, it made me sad thinking about this fcukin work.

now i regret leaving MSN. i cant have my sched preference. i cant take my lunch anytime i want. i cant have my preferred off. many things result to these cants. i cant have OT :p hehe.

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to further make myself happy, i saw the fireworks display. nice to see the fireworks again. i just thought, i had a busy schedule ahead of me. just when am i gonna have eternal happiness?

ive been living with granny for more than a couple of years. all i can say is she's awesome. ive been unmidful of the things that she does for me. but a while ago, i woke up realizing that she's prepared all the things that i needed for work before she left. unfortunately she wasnt there for me to say thanks. and oh, when was the last time that i was able to thank her for something? i don't know... because i never thought i have to.

i never shed tears whenever a relative passes away, but i know that when the inevitable happens, i would. and i pray that wouldnt be so soon.

i dont get excited when i go to work... unlike before when i always have to look forward to getting to work. now, whenever i get in the office, i always look forward to the dismissal time.

i dunno but i don't think i've met my best buddy on the floor. no one seems to be of the same lifestyle like mine. probably i'd have to explore more of what the company has to offer to me. maybe i'd be even happier if they'd give me my financial needs. the salary i got doesn't satisfy me. that could also be a factor.

and theres also this pa cute girl who makes papansin to me. i dunno but she's not my type. (i think i gotta rephrase the statement) i even get more pissed whenever she makes that lambing attitude she always do. that im not happy with. worse, she wants to go the same route i pass when i go home. grrrrr. what duh. as i'm writing this, she just turned to me and offered me something. which i refused. :p


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though there's this one thing that made my day more exciting aside from coke winning their game and seeing enrico had some arguements with ali on court.

my first love (puppy love, i should say, we were just 12 back then) sent me a message through friendster. kinilig na naman ako after a long time, and i definitely like the kilig moments. after 10 years of no communication, we got to exchange hellos. the catch is this person has family na. :( nonetheless, i still cherish the times we were together. im hoping we'll see each other soon. maybe pag sa reunion.

i really had to catch up with my sleep. i am kinda sick, the first time after a long time. thanks to science there's what we call medicine. and i'm feeling better as of this writing.

all day i was just in bed, watched tv (FPJ news mostly, RIP), played with the dog (which i don't normally do), and eat a lot.

the thing is i'm alarmed with what some people (mostly basketball people) who rarely see me comment. they say i'm becoming thin. which i don't like. i dropped by abs cbn to figure it out, there it is, 152 lbs. 6 pounds lesser after 5 months. but i'll figure it out. who knows i'm getting more muscles and losing more fats. and there's the saying that muscles are lighter than fats. or am i just making myself feel better with this theory?

with just 5 hours of sleep, i immediately texted gresh of the date we'll be having. and there it was, we all went to glorietta for a long delayed buffet trial. i didn't expect though that other friends would be there as well. the thing is i'm too shy to see them, but you see, they seem to be the same friends i knew. it went fine and we were having the same laughter i had back in msn (which i sorely missed).

we were buying some stuff when the group bumped into some people who i don't want to see. i just pretended i didn't see people. it's a small world, those people i'm pertaining to went the same way as we were about to go home. grrrrr. i must admit, i feel better now i'm in a different world.

i was suppose to be in the office by 8. i called ops and told them that i wont be able to be by the place at that time. i just told them i had an emergency. it's just i miss the people i'm with and i wont let the 2 hour OT spoil the night. the thing is, when i got to the office by cab at almost 10, i indicated in the log sheet that i came 8. (since the session wasn't over). they didn't question that. the catch, my proximity card's gone. apparently if it has to be replaced, it's worth 800 bucks. holy cow, how many hours of OTs am i gonna render for that. makapag OT nga.

we had our christmas party a while ago. i have a lot of comments, ako pa. haha. well it should've started ng 4 pm, but at that time i was still about to wake up. i was just enjoying my longest sleep for the current week (6.5 hrs).

kahit na mejo inuubo ubo pa ako (and my back really aches specially kapag inubo na ako, i decided to go sa gym para naman ma burn the calories i had yesterday.

i came sa party 15 minutes before 10. the company just rented 2 bars/restaurants sa eastwood coz mejo maliit pa ang company. mardi gras ang subject ng party and i didnt even thought of wearing a mardi gras costume. i saw some gurls wearing fancy costume but thats just it.

the food wasn't that great as i expected. mas masarap pa mag dine out na lang eh. hehe. my great disappointment was i didn't make it sa raffle. imagine a party that would last until past midnight finishing all the draws before 8:30? grrrr. sayang coz the prizes were okay.

me and my batchmates just went sa Basement for the Disco. but then, allergic talaga ako sa smoke. ang kapal ng usok. so we just made some stories sa city walk. at least nakapag bonding ako sa mga batchmates ko. and the "dinner's" done. pumasok ako ng amoy yosi. the good thing is minus 3 hours ang shift namen. thanks to the trainor, di ko na babanggitin ang name kasi may kapangalan sha. hehe.

now i'm finding more reasons (as in MORE) to stay longer sa company. i am not used to the salary that i'm currently receiving. sobrang tipid na ako pero ganon pa ren. if nothing improves in some months, i think i'll be reprinting some CVs again.

like the previous weekend, i am suppose to be with friends for the night. because i'm so lucky i have work, i have to say no to them. sayang ang wedding ng kapatid ni francis, time to shine sana pag mga ganung formal events.

i also could've gone wit team phoenix sa dinner nila. saya yun tiyak. sayang.

i just went to a birthday party instead. ang masama, may hipon! ang aking bestfriend. pagka dinner eh may break out na agad ako sa left ng face ko. grrr. (after weeks of not having one, NAKS! feeling flawless) in totality, masaya pa ren. 3 consecutive days na nga pala ako kumakain ng smorgasboard. ayus to.

as we were on our way home, i witnessed how long the line for FPJ's wake is. there was really a lot of people lining up to see Da King's remains. sana artista ako para di na pumila.

i really am looking forward to this night. until now i don't get excited going to work. hope my patience would pave off after sometime. the last day of the week in the office. and i am hoping that the next 3 days would be fruitful ones. pretty lucky i had 6 hours of sleep compared to the previous days.

me and some bratinellas saw each other a while ago and they look definately the same. that was just a brief lunch but it was worth it. tis my fourth consecutive day of eating at least 2 plates for one meal. almost 12 hours have gone by and i don't feel hungry at all. hopefuly i'll gain at least a pound when i weigh myself tom.

i am suppose to see a play tonight. it's the last of the playdates but i cannot be absent as i'm reserving it for the rainy days. good thing so i'll conserve money (at nang mabili ko na ang year long na pangarap ko).

i went to the city walk instead to see the fireworks this time from the site itself. and it's nice to see it from the ground unlike the previous weekends that i'm seeing it from the 25th floor.

i don't think i can sleep for the next 20 hours. since it's my off, i decided to do the stuff i have been planning to do like meeting my doctor and buying stuff for my family and friends for the yuletide '04.
wishin i won't spend that much since i already got some ideas from yesterday's stroll in greenhills and tips from agui a while ago.

I was having a great dilemma yesterday on which Christmas party to attend to. It’s undeniable that I would surely enjoy each of the said parties. It just so happened they were all scheduled yesterday. What I’m sorry for is that all of the parties are potentials. Potential in a way that I’m gonna get great freebies from the hosts!!! It doesn’t just happen in showbiz, also in the PBA.

What I did, I decided to join Paolo Mendoza’s group in La Vista. It’s been a tradition to attend their annual Christmas party since Y2K. And when we go there, we never go home empty handed. Of course there’s Doctor J honcho Rudy Mendoza, who I admire for being so down to earth. Actually because of the family being down to earth, parang I feel like making arbor one of the cars in the very crowded garage that they have. The cars outnumber the people in the family. Kainggit.

Like I’ve previously written, I’ve been eating smorgasbord for four straight days. It became five. I’m supposed to attend Dennis Espino’s birthday today. But that’s enough. I need a rest and I already gained three lbs. Though I really need to be somewhere today, and I’ll think about it.

Party ended 11 pm. But the Shell’s xmas party in Jupiter is still going on. Paolo’s heaven’s sent. He let his driver drive us to where were supposed to go. That’s the spirit of xmas. Hehe. After an evening of booze, I decided to go home. And happy I didn’t get home empty handed. Hehe. At least I got to go to two gatherings. Looking forward to more xmas parties.

pagkatapos ng 1 araw na walang humpay na paglilibot sa greenhills san juan kahapon ay minabuti ko na magpahinga na lamang ngayong araw na ito.

ang greenhills ay parang friendster kung saan makakasalubong mo ang mga taong kilala mo noon at ngayon. isama mo na ang sa hinaharap. sa paglalakad ko ng buong tanghali (kumakain ako ng shawarma habang naglalakad bilang tanghalian) hanggang hapon, mga 7 kaibigan at acquaintances ko ang aking nakasalubong. idagdag mo pa ang adviser ko nung high school na na realize ko kamukha pala niya si pretty trisza ng punchline.

nakapamili ako ng mga regalo for friends and families at aaminin ko, di ko talaga ginagawa iyon. since highschool, pag namimili ako ng pasko, para sa sarili ko lamang. di ako nagbibiro. ngunit sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, kelangan ko magbalik ng utang na loob at matutuong magparaya. dahil minsan lang iyon sa isang taon.

ang pinakamaganda kong nabili ay ang angpao (as taught by my mandarin instructor). mura pero mahal. mahal ang ilalaman. naipamigay ko na ang iba. at tulad ko pag ako ang nabibigyan ng pulang sobre, hanggang likod ang ngiti nila.

ang masama, ang mga regalong in kind na ibibigay ko sa mga katauhan ay naiwan ko sa kabundukan. hindi pa nga sila balot dahil hindi ako marunong. pano nga naman ako matututo eh hindi ako namimigay ng regalo. malamang ay sa susunod na linggo ko sila maiabot sa pututunguhan nila. better late than never ika nga.

i attended a xmas party tonight but it didnt make me feel complete at all. i wasnt able to finish the christmas party because of i have to be in the office by 11 pm.

actually i wasnt planning to attend the party anymore coz my trainor informed me that the management is imposing a rule that an agent who'll be absent a day or couple of days before the holidays wouldn't be entitled for double pays anymore. that's so sad. but one thing that makes me happy, i enjoyed my stay in the party. the fact that you are eating in a table PBA superstars, (them conversing with you) is heart warming. what i did, i compromised with my TM and told him that i'll be late for an hour and simply indicate in the attendance sheet that i came on time. whoa.

there were two big time personalities in the PBA who asked for a list of names of people to be given their respective envelopes. for the recent years, i've maintained myself to be in the list. but due to certain reasons that kept me away from the basketball scene, i didnt make it in the list this time. thats sad. but as the saying goes, it's better that you're the one who's giving, rather than receiving. giving means you've got more blessings.

i found my id already. thats a good news for me so that i'll not be spending P800 anymore. i found it in one of the dozen pants hangin in my cabinet. they're all used pants so i dont really get to see what's in the pockets unless i use them.

here's the deal. my great friend nonoy texted me that magic 89.9 is still searching for sponsors for the annual EK event that they are having. it's possible we can have tickets for january, summer, or worse, not anymore. but i'm keeping my fingers crossed so i wont spoil the group's plan.

christmas hype is over but im still enjoying the time that i had with people of different sorts so to speak. within the last 36 hours i've kinda semi calculated that i only had 5 hours of sleep a day. i dont wonder why i'll have any break outs any moment.

like the previous years i won't let my yuletide get spoiled as there are tons of ways of spending it happily. too sad i didn't spend the eve and christmas day with my family. (3 straight years for the record). am i really gonna be single for the rest of my life? i noticed that i go out with singles on paydays. and singles on christmas eves. no regrets though, they're really kewl and fun to be with.

same thing goes for the xmas day itself just spent the day with nostop booze and edibles with people. can't stop to take a handful of yummies served in every place i go. i decided to go home 3 am as there's my family i have to attend to. and im so excited of the dogs.
like everyone else's fridge, i cant find water coz it's full. because i was so sleepy, i wasnt able to brush my teeth and stuff. bed's got a magnet pulling me.

as soon as i woke up, immediately checked the dog. to my disappointment, chay's health surprisingly degraded. she got really ugly. tis one thing that makes me sad right now. i could've let her in the hospital but i guess it's just too late. she was given the meds though. i'm just looking forward to cho-cho who's giving birth any moment.

i would just like to say thank you to the people who gave me gifts. you know who u are, as this journal would eat up space if i mention ur names.
to the singles, see u on our date this week. im more than excited to see u guys.
let's pray for the victims of the earthquake and tsunami in the south east region. i was really alarmed upon hearing this.

again, have a blessed christmas.

papasok na naman ako ngayong gabi at napakabigat ng katawan ko on my way sa office. hindi dahil pagod ngunit di ko talaga nais pang pumasok para mag calls.
kahit pa double pay ngayon ay mukhang di na ako makumbinse para pumasok. sa totoo lang ay kung ano ano na ang pumapasok sa kokote kong mga ideas para di na ako maging empleyado. kanina lamang bago umattend ng dinner ay nagtanong ako kung marami pang mga available slots sa cyberworld para magtayo ng mga kiosks. o di ba naman at isang simpleng call center agent na tulad ko ay going big time at magtatayo ng franchise sa cybermall. sa ngayon ay pangarap lamang siya. sana matupad.

isa pang dahilan, kaya ako'y tinatamad, nagkita kita kami ng mga long time friends ko. sila ang mga kasama ko habang ako'y nagbibinata. buti na lamang dito kami nagkainan sa eastwood. kung hindi, malamang ay di ko sila nakasama. iba talaga ang pakiramdam kapag masaya ka sa piling ng mga kaibigan. kahit ano pa ang estado nila sa buhay. habang palabas ako ng resto, para bang ayaw ko silang iwan at sa halip ay mag stay na lang. ganun ko ka hate ang trabaho ko.

tapos kahapon, nagkita kita kami ng mga kulto, minus sim. "nag gift giving" (accdg to tibo). natuwa ako sa mga gifts at sana sila ren. dapat lang! (sana sa next na bi monthly get together walang mag iinarte. )sa lagay na yan, sino ang gaganahang pumasok?

heto pa. pagpasok ko ng floor, sumigaw ang tm na narito at pinag o-auto in ang mga agents. walanghiya. transition, tapos calls agad? ang malupit, yung OIC na nandito ang siyang mismong nag auto in saken. kung di ka nga naman mamalasin.