just wanna rant... im in a hurry to be honest, but who else would be more than available to hear my complaints but my blog which i neglect at times. sometimes life can really suck, specially those moments when you least expect it. im on a tight budget, you see, what i do after trying to earn a living, is make simple conversations with my neighbors, that is to prevent myself from spending, for the meantime, since i have yet to pay all those stuff i bought in serendra.

there i was, one lazy afternoon, sharing stories with anthony, victor, earl and ronald was eavesdropping i guess in front of that gym where we usualy hang out. at that point i can see my old sedan on the other side of the street. suddenly, i heard this loud noise, they told me that a truck hit it. at firs i felt dubious. positive. i heard the alarm, and the side mirror was found flat on the floor. the truck ran away.

at first i was in denial that it didnt hurt since it's comprehensively insured. but then i realize the amount of time and work i will be rendering to, again, have it fixed. and who says im safe from spending? im gonna have to pay my deductable too. good thing victor showed how great a friend he is, he came with me all the way to the manila traffice bureau to get this police report shit. can you imagine, they don't have forms for police report on situations like this that i have to go to the photocopying section to obtain one? secondly, when i asked for a pen, they asked me to buy as well. talking about government offices again. and when we were done, i was actually about to tell the police on duty that i didnt have my wallet with me, because i was about to give him something for doing the police report at that moment. well, before i can even tell him that, he already asked for money. at that moment, all that i could offer him was a cellphone load which he wholeheartedly accepted. haaay buhay PI.

and lastly, my uncle, who's in charge of the insurance, will still have to figure out when we could have it finally fixed. oh well, just ranting. be sure to watch game 7 of purefoods and santa lucia, it will be a nice game that i'd bet all my gadgets for SLR. haha. im going there now. Out!

that monday evening, i told francis that never again will I look down on people. is that the right term for manghamak ng kapwa? Anyway, i was compelled to do that because i realized, it's really bad. i mean, take for example this guy who frequents the gym. he looks really arrogant, which francis, anthony and i all agreed to. So going on with my story, he lifts really heavy amount of weights that i think isn't suitable for his medium frame. but who am i to judge his ability di ba? but the hell i care with how heavy he lifts, what really caught my attention was his asta. add to that the number of people he had conflicts with in that particular gym. it really annoys us. then we started criticizing him because he wears a variety of  fake nike rubber shoes.

then i realzed, what i'm doing is really wrong. i thought that all these criticisms i do are not constructive ones. these grammar corrections i do when im in a convo, which i have been doing all this time, arent really good. why can't i let these people be who they really are? i dont even have the prerogative to humiliate others for lacking something since i dont have everything anyway. simply put it this way, just don't mind the things around me that isnt pleasing to my senses. as long as it doesn't concern me, then let it be.

now i realize further that i have my own misunderstandings with other people as well.  and maybe they see me as that same person in the gym who is everyone's hate. im starting to count these people and it pains me that i'd have to hurt them with my attitude. but im not really the type of person who's fond of apologizing, especially when i know i'm right. but then, my broad understanding should prevail. i guess i'd do that should a similar situation arises even before the damage gets done.

Currently feeling: restless

i was  on a jeepney a while ago. at 6 am the sun was already up above. then the jeep passed by that shaw area where i usually have gas refill. I noticed, there has been an increase, again, maybe last night, maybe yesterday. Same period last year, unleaded was just PhP36.20 along shaw, now it's PhP44.70. Then something popped into my, some thoughts. I hope I remember all of them since it's been 5 hrs already.

 The government claims an extremely improving Philippine economy- I don't feel it as much as other people do. Sometimes I still have financial worries. There are times when I would rather have my dinner in those tapsilogan corners near our dorm. Then I couldn't afford emergency expenses like when I need something for car repair. It's been the same old shit. No improvement. Okay I'm not going to be an introvert, let's go outside. Sa basketball na lang (I always watch PBA and PBL), mas dumami yung mga tao who gets paid for cheering during the games.

The Oil Companies claim that theyre not earning from their businesses and as a matter of fact they're lugi. Then why continue? Are they born to be philantropists? Its never in a business manual to pursue with a business if there's no profit at all. But you see, the gas stations are sprouting in every Metro Manila street.

They are using this grain crisis to cover the ZTE controversy. Such a pity that our staple food is being used for such crap. Kawawa naman. Now they are said to be importing rice from other countries. That's crazy. Our land is good for cultivating a variety of agri products, and I've heard we have this Rice Institute where we teach other countries how to grow crops, and we're importing from them. Isn't that crazy?

The Palace wouldn't want Secretary Neri to talk in the Senate Hearings. It's very simple, if they have clear conscience and there's nothing that they're hiding, then why bother if Sec. Neri attends the hearing and answer all the questions. It's as simple as my mom asks me if I did steal money from her purse. Simple lang di ba? why make the story long? What's with the Executive priviledge by the way? Does that priviledge include approving anomalous government deals? Just my opinion.